I am pissed off with NTU for not giving me extra tickets to the convocation. Considering that I gave a donation to the IGAVE campaign, I expected at least an extra ticket. Speaking of which, the IGAVE campaign, a donation drive meant to help needy students, is nonsensical. In the sense, the government and university should come out with the money themselves to help the needy students and not pass the responsibility to us. Don't get me wrong, I am not being heartless, but I can't help suspecting where the donation money is going to when there is comfirm already enough money from corporations for bursary funds. Even after pestering me for money repeatedly, they cheekily send a letter to my father separately asking him for money. I wound not have known had I not come across the letter. The sneaky bastards. We have to be careful after all, when a monk like Ming Yi can own a horse for a pet, have club membership in Perth by using the Ren Ci funds, who knows what the IGAVE money is being used for.

I regret donating money. Just a ticket, so hard to comply with my request meh? I sincerely wish the management who came out with the IGAVE campaign, GETS HIV.

My convocation this coming thursday will mark the end of my student life. I've gotten a job which will start in a few weeks time and I have already listed items I want to purchase when I get my first month paycheck. Mixed feelings now. Happy that I secured a job and looking forward to money but lamenting the fact that I will lose my freedom.

It was my birthday last thursday and I celebrated it by watching Ice Age 3 in 3D format and having dinner at Marche treated by my friend. A couple of others treated me here and there on other days and I would like to thank them. They know who they are.

My parents went to Penang over the past 4 days so I was alone at home. I like the serenity of being home alone, the quietness and emptiness. I did all the household chores and kept the place cleaned. Its a feeling I cannot describe in words, but I kinda enjoyed having the whole house to myself.

I'm feeling better now. I wake up every morning and when the sun is up, I go swimming, when the clouds is grey, I watch my rented dvds. My life is slowly getting back on track. 3 weeks ago, the world came crashing down on me but I've accepted the fact and reality. Right now, I am optimistic that this time, everything will be alright.

I knew a man once who said, "Death smiles at us all. All a man can do is smile back."

As of now, I am letting go.

Its time to move on.

I guess now its time for me to give up. I feel its time.

Being is nothingness, nothingness is being; in serenely observing all things in the world, you automatically achieve all things.

I have not been hit so hard like this in years. I don't want to wake up anymore.

Looking forward to next friday. I so can't wait.